blooming gloom.
been depressed. e gloomy cloud above my head hasnt been dispersing, and nothing seems to be able to lift my mood for more than a couple of hours. and things kept coming to me to weigh my heart down further.
i feel that i havent started my holidays yet. havent been thoroughly having fun. been cooping up at home and thinking, well, thoughts. none of them really healthy ones.
ive been disappointed, upset, depressed, pissed off and gloomy all in the span of these few days. i hope e thunderstorm will pass soon enough and return me e clear blue sky again. i really need that.
i knew this will happen. and i just couldnt prevent it. havent i mentioned this even before anything even started? and now e hurt hits me all over again.
and i thought, for once, this might all be gone...
